Longing For Gods House

Recently I have had the privilege of experiencing some wonderful but completely serious conversations with many amazing people. In all of those conversations though I have discovered that there’s something very in common and reoccurring between us.

What can it be?

It’s the fact that many of us have experienced a drifting away from God to an extent that when we look back and study what is different between now and then it becomes discouraging because we discover it happened due to our own selfish fleshly decisions to ignore doing all the that help us strive as Christians to become closer to God.

What were those materials that formed the strengthening relationship between us and God?

Well, they were building blocks that were as simple as: reading our bibles, finding time to pray to God, finding time to just      acknowledge God even in the small things received within life, sacrificing our own comfort for others. Yet none of them were taken into consideration as Christians desiring to thrive in Gods presence, will and love. In result we learn, that, Satan utilizes these seemingly small decisions to ignore what our spirits gently tell us to do and shatters the foundations beneath us that kept us at bay from evil and all its many forms: selfishness, self-sufficiency, gluttony, pride, lust, jealousy and countless more .

The Result.

We are left longing to be in Gods presence again, yearning to feel His cup of holy fire wash over our frozen hearts and icy souls. We are left with a feeling, oh so very desperate, to dwell within our Lords courts again because no amount of temporary pleasure within the wickedness of the world could satisfy what God could.

Only then we understand that this is why we had weakened our relationship with God and fallen away. Because we made Him a routinely thing, something done out of expectations of others and not out of ones own individual love to do what God desires us to do. Because we forget that it’s a privilege to know God and to serve Him as His vessels and Him, our master. Because we became desensitized to the fact that the very thing we worship and love; God becomes foreign to us, the cross becomes only a familiar symbol of sacrifice and we are left bare wondering how to find ourselves in His courts again. We sit there, reminiscing about how we let this happen and its becomes so very difficult to come back to His royal gates again, on our knees we feel so out-of-place kneeling before Him, on our feet walking we feel distant, alone and unworthy. Sometimes it can feel almost impossible to get back. Satan tries to convince you that you can only get back into His kingdom by achieving some dramatic feats, like making up lost bible time by reading your bibles for hours on end, or automatically getting on your knees and praying for hours to see if you get anywhere.

In Gods eyes, though, He is saying

“Just try your best to live for me again, I don’t need dramatic extravagance or quantity, I need your honesty in all you do, I need your sincerity in all you plan to achieve for me, or underneath my sight, I need true quality. It means endless times more that this is done rather than you try to impress me with something done out of mind instead of heart.“

That is why sometimes even the simplest prayers and words said to others or from others to yourself can mean so much, can have so much weight to them, and can pierce you deeper than any other blade could go. You know, We all know because nearly all of us have experienced this.

As we do these things out of our sincere commitment to God with all it required aspects such as completely admitting to God your fears, failures, and imperfections. OUR NEED OF HIM. As we begin to look for more Him than ourselves, we begin to discover and develop who we are in HIM and not who we are in FLESH. It takes an extremely long time to proficiently live and then achieve what God desires for us after its figured out, but, you know, that is what we have a whole life to live for, and even after.

(Of all that was said one has to remember that works without faith are nothing and faith without works are nothing as well. Also that, you are only able to maintain a relationship with God in the first because of  His pure mercy love and grace towards us. . .nothing else.)

In the glory of it all Gods gates open with compassion and a river of love surges through the depths of your soul and you sit there in His courts as He molds you and makes you whole.

Explained within Isiah 54:8 ( “In a surge of anger I hid my face from you for a moment, but with everlasting kindness I will have compassion on you,” says the LORD your Redeemer.)

Do not be discouraged all whom go through this, you’re never alone. This is something even the sons and daughters of the holy days had experienced and nearly everyone around you.

Psalm 84

“ ¹ How lovely is your dwelling place,
   LORD Almighty!
² My soul yearns, even faints,
   for the courts of the LORD;
my heart and my flesh cry out
   for the living God.
³ Even the sparrow has found a home,
   and the swallow a nest for herself,
   where she may have her young—
a place near your altar,
   LORD Almighty, my King and my God.
⁴ Blessed are those who dwell in your house;
   they are ever praising you.

 ⁵ Blessed are those whose strength is in you,
   whose hearts are set on pilgrimage.
⁶ As they pass through the Valley of Baka,
   they make it a place of springs;
   the autumn rains also cover it with pools.
⁷ They go from strength to strength,
   till each appears before God in Zion.

 ⁸ Hear my prayer, LORD God Almighty;
   listen to me, God of Jacob.
⁹ Look on our shield, O God;
   look with favor on your anointed one.

 ¹⁰ Better is one day in your courts
   than a thousand elsewhere;
I would rather be a doorkeeper in the house of my God
   than dwell in the tents of the wicked.
¹¹ For the LORD God is a sun and shield;
   the LORD bestows favor and honor;
no good thing does he withhold
   from those whose walk is blameless.”

Here is a song that I think many should just listen to and enjoy.

A personal favorite at the moment.

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